Where does time go? I can’t believe it has almost been two months since I’ve been back in Michigan.
I was just out riding and thinking…I think a lot. In fact I believe it is the desire to know my own mind that makes me want to jump in the van and seek the world around me. I see a world so different than the one society had previously painted for me. For so long I felt like I was on this blind roller coaster ride where life would seamlessly take me on a path of constant highs and lows; never consistent, and always unpredictable. Monotonous, dark, grey, and dull are a few words I'd have used to explain the life I was living. Time ticked by like a tortoise slowly crossing the road on a hot humid summer day. Although everything on the outside seemed great, I was slowly dying on the inside.
It seems crazy, but somewhere along the line I lost myself to the world that said I had to live a certain way, look a certain way, talk a certain way, and even convinced me that things…THINGS…gave me some sort of self-worth!? As a kid all I wanted to do was have fun. And really I don’t think fun can even sum up the feelings a child has toward life; its more of a fullness. You simply want to enjoy every moment and it doesn’t matter what stands in the way. The days used to feel longer. Much longer! And the funny thing is now the days never seem to be long enough. What’s more interesting is time hasn’t changed pace; sped up or slowed down. No, time has been steadily ticking along at the same rate since the beginning of existence. So what does change that makes the days of a child seem unending, to that of an adult which can’t find even a second of enjoyment for themselves? I’d have to say its perception, among other self-created realities. The human mind is a beautiful intricate machine. Something that can either be your biggest asset in life, or sadly your greatest enemy. Ultimately it’s up to us to free ourselves from the burdens of stress, anxiety, fear of failure, doubt, and any other self-limiting belief that we may have. Truly from the bottom of my heart I tell you that you are not limited to what others claim to be impossible.
I started tinkering around with the van yesterday. I have a lot of work ahead of me. I’m not sure whether I want to put bare minimum effort into designing it, as to save money which can be put into further adventures; or go all out and really make it my own. The one thing I do know, whether I jump in the van tomorrow and hit the open road, or put the time in to reconstruct the interior, is that I’m going to have to be patient. This life I have decided to embark on is one that will slap you in the face if your not paying attention. And it can easily beat you down if your not patient with the process. For me everyday is the classroom. It’s important to stay optimistic and consistent. Life has a tendency to give you what you focus on.
My plans widen and change with every passing day, so it’s hard to explain everything that’s going on. However, the one thing that remains the same is my soul’s craving for adventure; it thirsts for exploration; and it wants nothing more than to share this one beautiful life that we have with other life seeking individuals. Life is too short to work away for the sake of a lot of things. Take a look around and see where we are headed. It’s time to slow down and share moments with one another, as that is all that remains when everything else rots, withers, and passes with each aging day. As for me, it’s all about the present. I believe that if I consistently live within the moment and enjoy the pureness of it’s presentation, I will live a life well lived.
I think I am going to start running wrestling camps, practices, and doing other odd jobs to help bring in some money to support these dreams. I’ve realized the path to financial freedom in it’s most basic sense is nothing more than spending less than you make. So in an attempt to further this dream and see how far I can take this life, I am going to start using my wrestling gifts to provide value in other young ambitious individuals lives. After a year and a half off the mat it is time for me to get back into it. My goal in life is to never work for the sake of money itself. I came into this world with nothing and have no intentions on taking anything out, so why spend all my life acquiring things that don’t last? The only way I truly care to make money is if I’m providing value in another person’s life; collectively or individually.
My nephew has a wrestling tournament down in Jersey toward the end of July and I think I’d like that to be my send off. I have a lot of work and planning to do before then, but am excited to make this dream come true. Hopefully two months is enough time to equip the van with everything I need to live and work on the road. I will be taking photos of the entire process and even plan to do some videography as I go. Stay tuned and don’t forget to say hi if you see me around!
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