Life is funny, I really believe if I would’ve lived the way I do now back in the college days I could’ve done more; not only in the field of athletics, but academically as well. They say hindsight is 20/20 and I’m inclined to agree! I just came inside from a nice soul reviving run, which consisted of nothing more than my feet pattering along country roads, birds-a-chirping, and the lake as clear as glass. The stillness of the air is something to be admired; a place where true strength is hidden in the calm of the moment.
The vast majority of my life has been spent training. Now that I’m older I can look back and appreciate the time I put into the great sport of wrestling. And when I say time invested there are a few special people in my life that can picture what I’m talking about. The people that went to war with me. Not only in battle, but also on the mat and in training. You see I’ve found that it’s hardly the result that truly matters in the end. No, what I’ve found matters is everything in between and the moments shared with the people you are with. Growing together and challenging one another to consistently be better than the day before. That’s where it’s at. I mean seriously, all we have is this one life. As far as I know we don’t get another shot to come back and do all this over again.
I don’t mean that to sound defeating or to come off as sad because it’s not. The thought of only having this one life is actually a source of power and encouragement. It’s like a super power in a way. All I have to do is keep showing up and challenging myself to be better than I was the moment before; all the while continuing to be optimistic; imaginative even. Sometimes I wonder how our culture has reached the state in which it finds itself, where we’ve limited ourselves so much that our reality of ourselves has also changed. We really are capable of much more than we think!
Now that I’m done competing and supposed to “become an adult,” I want nothing more than to let the inner child out and play. I want to be lost in the vastness of the ocean; admiring its beauty and respecting its size. I want to go on epic hikes and challenge myself to go further than the day before. Find a mountain to conquer by way of mountain bike; and then zone in on the techy descent down, allowing for sharp maneuvers, sick jumps, and occasionally going so fast you wind up smacking the ground like a bug hitting a windshield. I long for the days of adventure. Between jumping out of airplanes and nervously piloting one over the Golden Gate Bridge I’ve found the life for me. It’s a life of adventure. This is after all a journey, so why not see where I can take this life?!
If you’ve been with me since the beginning you’re probably familiar with me talking about only having this one life to live. For one reason or another it tends to pop up in my writings more often than not. If I had to guess I’d say it’s because I’ve spent some time pondering the whole idea over, which has allowed me to attribute new meaning to the situation. Honestly it makes it real for me. I know my time here on Earth is limited. But rather than dwell on the fact that one day, whether it be soon or ninety years from now, my physical body will pass; I allow it to fuel me and enrich the life I’m currently living. I don’t care about money, I care about time. Time spent with the people I love. Time spent doing what I love. Time spent challenging myself and my soul, whether it be physically, mentally, or spiritually. We are our own best investments. It doesn’t matter what your life looks like in this present moment. It is never too late to invest in yourself. And by investing in yourself it can mean a whole host of things. From starting a new fitness program, aiming to live healthier, easing up on yourself when you make a mistake, or simply doing something that adds value back into your life.
I wake up every day trying to be the best me I can be. I’m not always at my best, and I don’t always make the right decision, but the main thing is that I refuse to beat myself up for it. I find myself training more often than I did while I was an athlete. Maybe not as extreme, but with the same amount of passion and drive for success. I’ve found that we are in essence just a culmination of the time and experiences that came before us. We are all learning as we go in one way or another. Even the laws and sciences that dictate our judgement today were at one time just a thought put into motion. Creation hasn’t stopped, yet I feel like we limit ourselves to a world that says just because it’s 2016 we are limited to certain realities; the Earth is flat kind of thing. A world where we live like everything has already been created. A world where you are limited to what already exists.
Well that’s just not for me. And although I don’t know the exact path in which I’m suppose to tread, or what the destination looks like just yet, I do believe I will get there. My vision exceeds my current circumstances. Sometimes life forces you to take action even when you’re unsure of all the steps. It’s those moments that I’ve found to be most rewarding, and also something I’ve come to know as faith. It doesn’t have to be perfect. You simply have to try.
P.S. I'm asking for 110 years. Why not?!
Have a great weekend,